Bogged down with those feelings, I stopped what I was doing (feeling sorry for myself and hosting a grand pity party for one) and I wrote down 10 people’s names whom are LIGHTS in my life, thinking I might be able to draw inspiration from their own inner glow. Wow! What a cool exercise. I thought about people I haven't seen in years to people I've only recently met. My mind was flooded with fond memories, happy moments, funny stories, and a bevy of warm emotions that immediately turned my mood around.
Inspired, I reached for my address book, grabbed some cute cards, and wrote each of them a hand-written note telling them I was thinking of them today, and how they've had an impact on my life. It was hard at first for me to put my feelings of gratitude down on paper because, if I'm honest with you, I felt a little insecure and embarrassed -- worrying the classic, time-honored tradition of the utterly useless "what will they think?" But the LIGHT quickly snuffed out those questions of darkness, and the words poured out of me. Proof that our daily lives are filled with LIGHTbeamers — sometimes right in front of our very eyes and shining so effortlessly, we hardly even acknowledge their power. But when you stop and really think about it, their LIGHT is so magnetic! I hand-addressed the envelopes and mailed these bad boys in the snail mail. This simple task-- a lost art by today's email & Facebook standards -- just set my heart on fire. I couldn't help but giggle little smiles to myself thinking about the unexpected surprise that was making its way to their mailbox.
Afterwards, I was beaming! It turned my whole perspective on it's heels. I had been feeling "stuck" -- struggling with certain stories to tell, finding clear direction and motivation -- but by simply turning my attention away from "me" and thinking about the LIGHT others shine just blew out all of that darkness. LIGHT flooded my vision and, once again, the writing process began to flow. Those 10 People shined their LIGHT on me when I needed it and they didn't even know it; it was such a cool experience.
Then, the "even cooler" moments occurred. I started hearing from these people via personal phone calls, emails, texts, and private messages, thanking me for my card and sharing my kind words with them. What I sent out was returned to me tenfold. The phone calls especially warmed my heart because we are all busy, busy, busy people and those who took time out of their day to personally call me on the phone and allow us to exchange the pleasantries of hearing each others voice was a real LIGHTbeaming moment. Just as it seems writing those hand-written notes is a lost art, I dare say so is calling people on the phone just to say, "Hey!" I mean, really, when was the last time you called someone who you don't talk to regularly just to 'check in and say hello'? Gosh, what a simple way to share LIGHT with each other, right??
I didn't think about all of this when I first sat down and made my list of 10 names; I was simply trying to find a way to deflect some negative feelings. And even with my personal notes in the mail, the most I thought about was the smile it would bring to my friends' faces and perhaps generate a quick reply message of thanks. I did not anticipate the thoughtful and meaningful phone conversations that this would inspire. Our expectations have become so diluted and dulled, haven't they? We need to step up our game, people!!!